Posts

Lesson 6

Where do you see yourself in one year? What goal or goals do you hope to meet? Do your best to answer this one, even if your vision is fuzzy, including your most important values. In one year - I had a dream that this year had already passed - that the feeling of one month had actually been an entire year. I say that to say...a year is very short. I'm not sure where I want to be in a year. I want to feel more deeply in my body. I want to be completely out of financial debt.  How do you envision your life in five, ten, and twenty years? If you don’t yet know, write about why you don’t yet know or describe your experience of not-knowing. I think it's too early in the morning for me to have these visions now. Or, more rightly, it's too early in my current process to know where I see myself. I started a journey 3 years ago. The last journey I took like this took 4 years to really have a direction in mind, and ten years to complete. I feel patient and don't want to ass...
Post a Comment
Read more

Lesson 5

I would like to honor I was in a fairly negative place when I wrote some of my last journal entries. They do not encompass my whole experience. But I'm going to let them stand for what they are and the moment I wrote them. In what spirit do you typically enter a date? I don't date, so I don't have an answer to this question. How has that spirit served you in the past, and was it loving toward yourself? Just having to respond to that question above and thinking about how I don't date and how that angers me brings up more anger. I feel some tightness in my face and in my solar plexus. Now some emotion is coming up from under that. I want to say Fuck You for asking me in what spirit I enter a date. I'm sure I could respond to the nature of the question if I wanted to, but this rage and desire to lash out is much more interesting. There are thoughts that go along with that too, like "why not me? why am I not worth dating? why don't people ask...
Post a Comment
Read more

Lesson 3

Make a list of your wants and needs in dating and relationships. Kindness Respect Honesty Love Attraction Desire Growth Harmony Maturity Emotional Intelligence Intelligence Communication Sex Chemistry Exploration Experimentation Security Safety Touch Sweetness Mutual active caring for each other Inclusion Intrigue Expansion  Understanding Eye contact Serendipity Excitement Joy Emotability Easeful conflict resolution Home Supporting visions Supporting actions Independence and interdependence Hand holding Face stroking Mutual attraction Holding Leaning into Financial wellbeing Physical wellbeing Open-mindedness Hearing each other Did I mention love?
Post a Comment
Read more

Lesson 2

What did I love doing as a child? My favorite things by myself were creative - painting, drawing, writing poetry, reading, philosophizing, journaling, rearranging my room. My favorite things with other people are different depending on my age. As a younger child I remember loving to just play. I remember recreating the dance from Dirty Dancing with my neighbor because we both loved the movie. Tag, hide-and-seek, anything where we felt free and open and even with each other. Non-judged. As an older child, I loved (and still love) conversation. Sitting for hours and hours talking and drinking coffee. Also, playing board and card games.
Post a Comment
Read more

Lesson 1

When you think back on your dating experiences what emotions come to your mind and body?  Right now, because of my current situation, I'm experiencing anger. From the past, anger, disappointment, sadness, frustration, dread, pressure in my chest, like I want to stay alone. (and it makes me feel alive) If you haven't dated before, what are your feelings about the idea of dating? Well, I feel I haven't dated in the way that I imagine I would like to date, so I'll answer this question too. Apprehension, excitement, nervousness, in addition to what I listed above.  (and it makes me feel alive) Make a list of your emotions surrounding dating and the inner narratives and questions which tend to accompany these emotions. This list will be a touchstone for you as you move through the course, so take time to gently access your feelings, including the full complexity of your experience-- the good and the bad. Why not me? (and it makes me feel alive) Why a...
Post a Comment
Read more